So Much Has Happened!

I've been so busy with life that haven't blog about it! I'll start with saying we moved into a new place that is so beautiful. It really feels like home! We have a garage and a little yard, it's going to be so much fun to play with Justin and Spock in our backyard.
Now for more important matters, Justin! He is getting so big and has developed so much. He sits on his own, crawls like a pro, babbles on and on to everyone and everything, he stands with little support and walks from object to object. He is such an amazing little boy! He has also gotten two little teeth on his bottom jaw. He eats many different kinds of food, he just started on some lumpier foods and will be starting meats next month! He has become such a little mama's boy, I won't lie, I kind of like it. It's a good feeling when he chooses me over others. He has made my life so much better than I ever imagined it could be.
Zac and I just had our two year anniversary! I love Zac so much and am so grateful for everything that he does for out family. I honestly don't know what I would do without him. For our anniversary we just did something simple. We went and saw 50/50 then went to the Timber Mine. And I have to thank Jan (Zac's mom) for watching Justin for us while we went out. She is so wonderful, she absolutely loves babysitting for us. We had such a wonderful anniversary!
It was also the one year anniversary of my sister's death. A more unhappy anniversary. She is still missed dearly by so many people and thought of very often. I certainly think of her all the time! I love and miss her with all my heart! I am a very lucky person though, on Tuesday while Jan was babysitting for us Zac and I went and did baptisms for the dead, one person in particular, my sister. It was such a wonderful experience! I could really feel her presence there with us, I know that she walks with our Heavenly Father today and that she is finally fully happy. I also know how proud she is of her family, Ayla is so smart and I know that DeLynda is looking down on her saying "That's my daughter!", and Daylin to is very smart and has gotten so big, I know she's so proud of everything he's learned. I just wish that Justin would get to grow up really knowing who his Aunt DeLynda is and not just have to go off of all the stories we tell him.
I'm starting to feel back on track now, though I get thrown of more often than most would think.
Well, I think that sums it all up for now. I'll try to keep everyone updated more often.

Progress Report

 Justin is now 3 months old as of Friday, and it's been an amazing 3 months. It's so much fun watching him grow and develop. In Justin's 3 months of living he has grown so much, it's truly amazing to see how much a baby grows in size and development in such a short amount of time. He has learned so much so fast!
 Justin can roll over from his tummy to his back and from his back to his tummy, though he hasn't gotten back to tummy down all the way quite yet, he is also holding his head up all by himself, grabbing things with his hands, smiling, he's starting to laugh, he sticks his tongue out and licks things, he puts things in his mouth, he interacts with people, reacts to noises and will search for the source of a sound, and he does lots of baby "talk".
 We bought him a bumbo seat right before he started holding his head up completely on his own and started putting him in it as soon as we could. And now he can seat for a few seconds before falling over, I'm sure he'll be seating on his own in no time.
 I'm sure that there is more developing that he has done that I just can't think of right now.
 I've also learned a lot, I can tell what cry means what, I know what toys he likes to play with and how to help him play with those toys, I've learned what nursery rhymes he likes best. I can't wait to learn and grow with him! Being a mom is hard work, but it's so much fun, I wouldn't change it for anything!
 Watching Zac with him is fun too, he already has Justin addicted to basketball! Justin will stare at the t.v. while daddy plays his basketball game or watches the Jazz play. Zac will sing to Justin and talk with him and Justin just loves it so much. I love how much Zac loves spending one on one time with Justin, which is nice for me because he'll let me have some time to relax by myself.
 Justin has developed so much in so many ways and I'm excited to watch him continue to grow.

Tooth Hurty....

 I babysit my nephew for my mom while she goes to school and work. Today after she got finished with school she had a dentist appointment, she was suppose to take Daylin, Justin and me to her house before her appointment, but she was running a little late, so we had to tag along. Luckily Justin slept the whole time, Daylin on the other hand, well he was probably the exact opposite. Before my mom went back to see the dentist he wasn't very bad, but as soon as she left he decided to take it to the max. He absolutely did not want to sit down and watch the movie that was on, he wanted to run around. However, I did not.
 There was kicking, screaming and even head butting, I didn't know what to do. I threatened with time out and taking him out to the car, with which he decided time out was better, but he didn't want the time out to be where I wanted the time out to be, and it began all over again. Finally I just gave in and let him sit in time out where he wanted to, but once there if I even so much as looked at him he started screaming at me "DON'T LOOK AT ME!!!" After a few minutes he calmed down and sat quietly in his chair, when he started to be smiley again I thought he was ready to behave, so I asked him if he wanted to sit by me now and he graciously excepted the invitation. For the rest of the appointment we sat together and read magazines. I'm so thankful that Justin slept the whole time, I have no idea how I would have handled a crying baby and a tantrum throwing 3 year old, I'm sure one day I will though.

Celebrating Mother's Day!

 This year was my first Mother's Day. I can honestly say that I understand and can appreciate Mother's Day, even though I haven't been a mother for very long. Giving birth to a baby alone deserves a good recognition! Sometimes being pregnant was hard to handle, but holding your baby in your arms for the first time and looking into each other's eyes and knowing in that moment that you could never love anything or anyone the way that you'll love your children, that makes everything you've gone through and will go through all worth it. My pointing being that i think even the newest of moms deserves to be recognized on Mother's Day.
 For Mother's Day Zac got me quite a few things. First he sent me to get my nails done with my grandma on Tuesday, then on Thursday he surprised me with some early gifts, he got me a bracelet watch, a necklace, a super cute shirt and a new wallet, he gets so excited to give me any presents that he gets me, and today he treated me to some delicious food. He spoils me, it doesn't even have to be Mother's Day or my Birthday, he'll just randomly bring me home a present or take care of Justin for a bit so I can take a relaxing bath or nap. I have such a sweet husband!
 Yesterday Zac's parents had a BBQ to celebrate Mother's Day. We got Jan a card and gave her a picture of Justin, Zac and myself, it was the first hard copy picture that we've given them of Justin, I send them pictures of him via text message all the time. We had so much fun visiting Zac's family, unfortunately we didn't get to stay for very long because had to go back to work at 6, but we did get to show off Justin, which we love doing! Zac's parents got me a Mother's Day card and present as well, they got me a Salt City Candle, which is pretty much the best kind of candles out there.
 Today Zac and I went and saw my grandma to give her a Mother's Day card and a family picture as well. Last Sunday she gave me a necklace that says Eternal Love. It's so beautiful and I love it so much! We also went to see my mom, she was working so we had to wait a while before we could see her. We also gave her a card and a family picture. She wasn't able to get me anything, but having her for my mother is all I need. She truly is the best mom I could ever have, I'm so grateful for everything that she's done for me. I love her very much and hope her day was the best!
 Now all I have left to say is Happy Mother's Day to all the great moms out there!

Justin Ryan Hubbard

 I found out I was pregnant the summer of 2010, what a scary moment that was. This little person's life depended on me, that has to be the biggest responsibility anyone could have. Watching my belly grow and seeing pictures of the baby has he developed and feeling him kick was so amazing. I can remember putting Zac's hand on my belly and Justin giving a good kick or punch, it was a little hard to tell what was what at that time.
 One of my favorite things was getting the 3D Ultra Sound. My first 3D Ultra Sound was at my Targeted appointment, Justin made getting the picture very difficult. It took us about 20 minutes just to get him to move his arms out from in front of his face, which is where he kept them the majority of the pregnancy, so we didn't get very many 3D pictures, after we finally got his arms out or the way we got a couple good ones. Seeing his face was so incredible. I looked at his face on the monitor then turning to Zac and giggled a little bit and smiled at him as I said he has your big nose. The doctor conducting the Ultra Sound was so much fun too. She explained everything she was doing and told us what parts were what and told us how everything was doing. Plus she made me feel super good, she kept telling me how tiny I looked for how far along I was. (I think every girl likes to hear how small they look.)
 I'd have to say that Zac's favorite part was finding out the sex of the baby. I was about 15 weeks when we got the Ultra Sound that told us were having a boy. Zac was so excited to hear that, maybe it was because all of our friends were having a girl or had girls or maybe he was just excited to have someone to play and watch basketball with him, but whatever the reason he sure was excited. He asked our doctor to check again the next few visits.
 The last doctor's appointment ended up being the the day before I delivered. This is how it went, we went in and started with all the basic stuff, urine test and blood pressure. After having a false labor a few nights before, I was a little disappointed that I was still pregnant, my belly was VERY big and heavy, so I was ready to have the baby right then and there. My doctor arrived to measure the baby and check how everything was going. She measured the baby weighing 10lbs, this is really just an estimate, but we knew that couldn't be right, so she measured him again and this time got 9lbs. Now earlier in the appointment they checked my blood pressure and it was a little high, so my doctor was a bit concerned about that and then after getting the weight she got when she measured him she wanted to get the him out soon. She told us that if we waited too much longer that I wouldn't be able to deliver. She let us know that she could do it the next day, but she had to make sure that there was an opening at the hospital we would be delivering at, after finding out that there was (at 5am), we got all ready, no we weren't ready yet. When we arrived at the hospital the morning of the induction I was starting to get nervous and tried to back out, but of course I couldn't. It was 5 in the morning when we got there, but they didn't get to start my induction until 8, which didn't make me very happy.
 Finally they started it and my contractions were coming every 2 minutes, until they broke my water, then they started coming every 30 seconds and I absolutely couldn't handle that. I was trying to hold off on the epidural for as long as I could and when the contraction started coming that close together that was as long as I could. So I asked to get the epidural, turns out there was 3 other girls waiting to get it before me. I had to wait, and waiting was hard! After I got the epidural I felt so so much better and it was only an hour or so before I was ready to start pushing. I was so excited to hear that news, but I didn't expect to have to push for over 2 and a half hours.
 The delivery was tough for both Justin and me. It took quite awhile to get his head out and after his head was finally all the way out instead of it getting easier, it only got harder. Apparently his chest was bigger than his head, which is not very normal.
 After the almost 3 hour delivery I finally got to see my baby boy in person. As soon as he was born they put him on me and had Zac cut the cord, as he did that I watched with tears in my eyes. This had to be the most amazing day of my life. Justin Ryan Hubbard was born on February 18th 2011, he weighed 8lbs 10oz and was 21 inches long. After the cord was cut they took Justin to clean him off and I told Zac to go and be with him. After they cleaned Justin they had Zac put his first diaper on him and taught him how swaddle him. I was a little bit upset that Zac got to hold him for so long before I got to, but I know that he was so excited to finally get to see and hold him.
 Zac and I had only our moms in the delivery room with us and everyone else came after we had him. Only people who were 14 and older were aloud in the room, so Ayla wasn't able to come see him when we were in the hospital and that broke her heart, she was so excited to meet Justin. Everyone was telling me that she cried so much when she found out that she wasn't going to be able to see him until we went home. Jan (Zac's mom) stayed the longest, she just couldn't get enough of her new grandson. It was so much fun getting to see everyone's reaction to seeing him for the first time.
 Now I can't even imagine life without Justin, he is my pride and joy! Who knew someone so small could make you so happy.

A Sad Little Tale....

 Once upon a time there was a beautiful little girl. She was quite a handful for her parents, she was creative, smart, spontaneous, adventurous, friendly, and much more. You may be wondering who this little girl is. Well, her name was DeLynda Patricia Honneywell, and she was my older sister. And why is this a sad tale you may ask. For those of you who don't know, my sister died on October 12th 2010. Only 3 days after mine and Zac's Temple Sealing.
 I was laying in bed trying to get back to sleep after one of my many late night/early morning bathroom trips when my phone began to play my mom's ringtone. I sleepily reached for my phone and answer it with a curious "Hello?" My mother on the other end replied "Kaila, come to your door." Very confused I just say "Okay." So I walked downstairs in my robe and go to the back door, when I opened it I found my mom and her boyfriend Tim waiting for me, my mom in tears. I started asking her what was wrong and Tim quickly interrupted telling me to just hug my mom for a minute. Confused, but more concerned I did as he said. After our hug I ushered them into the living room, where I began asking them what was going on and where I received the horrifying news. My mom all in tears told me that my sister had shot herself. Now because she bawling while telling me this I didn't quite understand what she had said so I to make her repeat herself a couple times. The news didn't really sink in until I went upstairs to get Zac. When I woke him and tried to tell him what happened I just started crying and couldn't quite get it out. When the half awake Zachary finally understood what I was saying he rushed downstairs to my parents, and Zac and I decided to go over to their house. When we got to my parent's house we saw DeLynda's two children sitting on the couch, which is when I learned that they didn't know what had happened to their mom because I greeted with an excited "Hi Aunt Kaila!"
 My mom just couldn't break the news to them, so I was going to do, but when I started thinking about I was going to tell Ayla I realized that I couldn't do it either. Both my mom and I turned to Tim to tell her, and with tears in his eyes he got down to her level and held her arms and with a shaky voice he told her, "Your mommy went to heaven." Ayla started to bawl, I could tell that she was a little confused, but she knew what that meant. After we all cried together for awhile Ayla and I sat on the couch and talked about how she got to her Namaw's house and what she had previously thought had happened. She told me that some police officers had come to Blue (DeLynda's boyfriend)'s house where they were living and told her that she was going to go live with her grandma for a long time. They gave her and Daylin bags that had a toothbrush, paste, some hair stuff, toys and a blanket in it. She told me that she had just thought that her mom had gone to jail or something, which made her start to cry again, so I just held her in my arms for awhile. We had to start planning for the funeral and as the days of planning went on I had convinced myself that we were just planning a party for her, which had made the planning fun, but when the day of the funeral arrived, I guess it just hit me really really hard. I began thinking about all things we're going to have to do without her and all the things she'll be missing out on. She wasn't going to be able to hold my baby boy, or hug her kids when they're feeling down, she wasn't going to be able to cheer for them and give them hugs when they graduate high school and collage, she had given up the ability of raising her children, teaching them wrong from right, watching them grow teaching Daylin to ride a two wheeler. All these things that she wasn't going to be apart of. I know her spirit will be there for it all, but not her touch.
 It's still hard to think about her being gone and at times I find myself forgetting that she's dead and I have to be hit with reality all over again. We'll never stop missing her, but I know that we'll learn to live without her, we have to. I hope that our prayers reach her and that she knows how deeply she's missed. Every night that Daylin stays at my house we kneel pray before he goes to sleep and in every prayer he prays that he's mom knows that he loves and misses her.
 This is only the story of  DeLynda's death, maybe one day we can sit down and I can tell you the story of her life.

The Beginning....

 Our family's adventures started on October 2nd 2009, the day Zac and I were legally wed. I have to say that day was one of the most nerve wreaking days I've ever experienced, after all I was making quite a big commitment.
 Though our wedding was small and simple I wouldn't trade it for any other one, it was ours. Since I was newly baptized LDS we weren't able to be married in the Temple right off, and because so many of my family and friends weren't LDS we decided to use our wedding as a missionary experience for them, which meant standing at the alter while our bishop gave what we thought was going to be a small lesson (it actually turned out to be quite long).
 My Bride's Maids included Sharla Ash who was my Maid of Honor, my sister DeLynda Honneywell (RIP), Tawnee Stofferahn, Zac's sister Ally Hubbard, and Mikala Kilgore. Zac's Groom's Men included Adam Kilgore who was his Best Man, his brother A.J. Hubbard, Nathan Hubbard, and Logan Hubbard, and my brother Nathaniel Miller. Our Flower Girl was my niece Ayla Honneywell (and what a cute Flower Girl she was), our Ring Barer was my nephew Daylin Vargo (he was very grumpy, but very cute), and because my dad passed away in 2005 my mom's boyfriend Tim Mast walked me down the isle. We were married in the Huntsville LDS Church. It was one of the best days of my life.
 This day was the start of our little family and the adventures that were soon to come.